i have writing this 1000 times. and keep rewriting it over and over.  but never could say what i really felt. but now it time. my heart has been  broken, and burised. i have had to pick my own heart up and fix it. and ive let you back over and over. the man of god told us we was ment together and yet the more you find out the more you go the other way. without you things just aremt the same things are sollow. and i know what you can be. but you refused. and it leave me here without you. i did whats right and yet we are here. without my not complete. my heart is half. and  half a heart cant work as a whole. it cant pump like it should. witch makes other part not work right that how i feel without you.
life is just not the same without you. come home soon ur wife and kids miss u.