their starting to consume my thoughts and i cant stand it. hunting me out of my sleep as if im being reprimanded! thoughts of the past how uncanny to be thinking such things; when pain and hurt is all that it has had to bring?

could it be that i was addicted to his smell? indulged in what was? my addiction alone to him was a drug.

replaying random scenes in my mind, thinking of his dominate essence. i want to escape to the present; but my mind wont shift forward from past tense.
it's intense.

all these emotions tugging at me to release.
.....let it go...my courage is a no show
how can i gain peace?

the nerves in my body increase
then i realize; i can relax & release;
cause that's why it's called:
HISTORY!