Conflict or contradiction

Is it conflict or contradiction in the things that i believe that weaves this web of deep emotions which has raged inside of me tossing and turning and trying to break free. May be it's confusion and a little disillusion that run like fire through my veins. Words are the hardest things to contain. Your words are jumbled and your thoughts unclear. Some times it may even bring a tear. Then you wonder why your still here. It's a constant struggle to over come so many things self worth, & self doubt are the worst of these things. So far over the years it has slowly eased the pain. I'm looking forward to the day that they will all slip away. Then none of these things will bring any pain.