It was all the day to day disappoints building up

She never showed enough compassion to counter balance her wrongs

She in the end forgot the joys of being together

 To spite her flaws it wasn’t the end of my feelings for her

Yes I grew angry

Acted out of spite

It was my way of crying out to her

Trying to get through to her Heart

I was trying to communicate, trying to break through some how  

Wanting to see if she cared

Instead inflamed conversations followed

Nothing more than a desperate desire to connect with her

I could have listened better, could have tried better

Could have kept things from getting worse

But her lies wouldn’t stop

The problem wasn’t going away

Didn’t know what more to do

If there’s any part of her that honestly ever cared

Then there’s still a chance to save it all, to heal and move forward

I will take her anger and ignite the spark of love

I will uncover the desire for acceptance and love that left her open to being hurt

The larger the amount of anger, the stronger the connection

I will not give her a barrage of begging nor a parade of promises, just one perfect thing

My honesty, my love, my Heart

If she can return the same

This isn’t about tricking her, controlling her, or manipulating her

Can’t hypnotize her into giving me her Love or Heart

It’s about acknowledging what has happened

And harnessing the energy and momentum that remains from our relationship

I don’t want to run from “the elephant in the room”

I want to face and make peace with

The Harsh words exchanged, emotional cheating, the hard feelings leaving a bitter taste in my Heart

Rather let’s replace those with

Feelings of warmness, closeness, and attraction

Turning back the clock to simpler days is pointless,

Come let us plunge headlong into the future, into a better beginning

Where we smile, laugh, and reminisce of the good memories  

Feeling intense attraction as we get lost within each other  

The negative emotions we have caused each other can only go as deep as the care we have

You can only be angry with someone you truly care about

So there it is

There’s where I stand

-Fin-