Life is meant to be complicated this I knew I’ve fought the tides the hides and the lows against each cold wave I braced myself only to flounder again with on ones help fearful always of the dark cold sea and hidden monsters I couldn’t see I desperately fling and try to regain the firm ocean floor that I once attained I’m pitifully weak and the pulls to strong my life mistake all my choices wrong I kick and I kick till I’m finally worn out and every persistent sea finally pulls me out the gulls sing my last lullaby its okay we all try our best but not all can be saved and so I resign and take my breath as the possessive waves wash over my head under layers of struggle I sink most deep the flickering light promises I cant keep a murky darkness to my left unclear my frantic pounding heart is all I hear the pain numb at first deep in my side as something pulls me back from the tide a sharp cold rock has snagged my belt to hold me from death though no emotion is felt so twisted hurls me back to the shore living but dead now lost more than before