Barely holding on to what I have left inside

Falling apart over an over again

I don't know what to do

Hurting an scared an torn all apart inside

Heart is missing

Love is gone

Wanting to turn back the hands of time

Wanting to have the life back I used to know

Trying to hide what I feel from others

But from you I can't seem to hide

I want to feel once again

Instead I die a lil more inside each an everyday

I made promises to you I will always keep

I just wish I could show you how much I really love you

Fighting tears an fighting fears

Wishing it all would go away

Wanting so bad just to die

Wanting so bad to just be with you

Trying to figure out what is going on inside my head

Trying to stay alive

Fighting a losing battle

Playing a game I can't seem to win

Putting up a wall around me so I cant feel

So I can't get hurt an so I cant die