I saw you again today and my heart skipped a beat, I felt you slightly today but my hand seemed as cold as sleet.  I heard you say goodbye today and my mind longed to cry out.  I saw you cry again today and my soul wanted to shout.

You did not see me for which I am glad for that would have made your new life so sad.  You did not hear me today and I was really surprised for when you turned to go I gave such an audible sigh. And unlike times in the past you did not feel my touch today upon your skin, so this time your heart you did not need to defend.

I heard you explain about the new love you have chosen and my memories of the two of us seemed as if frozen. I watched as you stood there with this new love and I tried to stop the tug that seemed to be reaching from me to try to feel your love.  I heard you say a tearful "I will always love you" as you knelt down upon your knees and I was suddenly frightened for I knew this was how it had to be.

And then you silently said goodbye to me with a whispered kiss and I wanted so bad for you to hear me wish you a life a bless.  And as you placed the orchards that I once loved upon my grave and turned to walk away I knew that even in a place called Heaven I would cry because of this day.

Your Forever Love

Vanessa f Blake
5th of May 2008