I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME?

I THOUGHT YOU SAID THAT YOU LOVED ME.  WE DATED FOR TWO YEARS AND NOW EYES ARE FILLED WITH TEARS…..

I ASKED YOU TO MARRY ME AND YOU GLADLY SAID YES.

WE MADE IT TO THE Altar AND STOOD BEFORE GOD FAMILY AND FRIENDS; WE EXCHANGED OUR VOWS….

I SAID I DO AND YOU SAID YOU DO TOO.

WAS THAT REAL ARE JUST SOMETHING TO DO?

TO ESCAPE WHAT YOU WERE GOING THROUGH.

WHEN I SAID I LOVED YOU, YOU SAID I LOVE YOU TOO…

YOU TELL ME YOU WANT TO BE FREE.  I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME. 

IN THE PROCESS OF ME LOVING YOU I FORGOT TO LOVE ME.

YOU SAID YOU WANT A MAN WHO UNDERSTANDS YOUR HURTS, PAINS, YOUR NEEDS, AND  ISSUES

THAT WAS ME.

YOU ASK FOR A FRIEND THAT TOO WAS ME.

YOU WANT A HARD WORKING, LOVING, CARING AND UNDERSTANDING MAN THAT WAS ME.

I TELL YOU THAT YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL.  I LOVE YOU.  I ADORE YOU.  I NEEDED YOU.  I HOLD YOU CLOSE AT NIGHT ENSURING EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT.  I EVEN WIPED THE TEARS FROM YOUR EYES AS YOU CRIED.

 YOU SPOKE OF THE HURT IN YOUR PAST.

I JUST WANTED TO MAKE WHAT WE HAVE LAST….

I GUESS THE MAN YOU WERE LOOKING FOR JUST WASN’T ME.

YOU SAY TO ME LET ME BE FREE...

I THOUGHT YOU SAID THAT YOU LOVED ME.  BUT IN THE PROCESS OF ME LOVING YOU I FORGOT TO LOVE ME...

NOW ALL WE DO IS ARGUE AND FIGHT.  WHEN I HEAR YOUR VOICE I WANT TO TAKE A NON STOP FLIGHT, JUST TO GET YOU OUT OF MY SIGHT.

I DO ALL I CAN TO MAKE THIS RELATIONSHIP WORK RIGHT.  I TRY WITH ALL MY MIGHT.

I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME?

IN THE PROCESS OF ME LOVING YOU I FORGOT TO LOVE ME

SO NOW YOU’RE TELLING ME YOU CAN’T TAKE THIS ANYMORE.  I'LL BE LIKE AN EAGLE AND SOAR.  SOAR HIGH ABOVE THE MY HURTS AND PAIN…

ALLOW MYSELF TO STAND IN THE RAIN SO IT CAN BLEND WITH MY TEARS.  DEAR GOD, SAVE ME FROM ALL MY FEARS.

MY FEARS OF BEING ALONE….

I REALIZE YOU’VE BEEN HURT AND I SO HAVE I.

I WAS ONLY TRYING TO COMFORT YOU…

I GAVE YOU ALL OF ME.  IN THE PROCESS OF ME LOVING YOU I FORGOT TO LOVE ME.

AM HURTING BECAUSE WHEN I SAID I LOVED YOU, YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME TO. WE MADE IT TO THE ALTAR AND EXCHANGED THE WORDS I DO.

WAS THAT REAL ARE JUST SOMETHING TO DO.

I GUESS THE MAN YOU WERE LOOKING FOR JUST WASN’T ME. NOW YOU SAY YOU WANT TO BE FREE.

I REMEMBER WHEN YOU FELL IN THE ARMS OF ANOTHER MAN.  YOU WANTED ME TO UNDERSTAND.

BECAUSE YOU SAID HE WAS YOUR FIRST MAN.

I PRAYED TO GOD ABOVE AND STILL GIVE YOU MY LOVE.

IN THE PROCESS OF ME LOVING YOU I FORGOT TO LOVE ME…

I WILL NO LONGER IS I STRESSED GOD'S RELEASING THIS PAIN FROM MY CHEST.  IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE WITH YOUR MESS MOVE ON.

HOW DID LOVE GET HERE, LOVE DOESNT LIVE HERE ANYMORE.

IF ONLY THAT WAS TRUE BUT FACT REMAINS I LOVE YOU.

I LOVED YOU SO MUCH I LOST MY IDENITY I WAS STRIP OF ME.  I KNOW I MESSED UP BUT DON’T FORGET YOU DID TO AND I FORGAVE YOU.

I TOOK CARE OF YOU.   I TRIED TO GIVE YOU THE FINER THINGS IN LIFE NO MENTAL NOR PHYSICAL ABUSE, BUT I GUESS THAT’S WHAT YOU WERE USE TOO…

WHEN I NEED YOU THE MOST TO ME YOU ARE A GHOST.

I COULDN’T SEE YOU NOR FEEL YOU.

I WAS GOING THROUGH AND YOU DIDN’T CARE TO LISTEN SO SHE DID.   ITS WASN’T EVEN ABOUT THE SEX IT WAS ABOUT FEELIING WANTED AND SOMEONE WHO SHOWED THEY CARED.

I WANTED TO COME HOME WITHOUT YOU NAGGING AND FUSSING.

YOU CONSTANLY ACCUSSING ME OF CHEATING ON YOU WHEN I’M NOT. 

YOU SAY BABY I FORGAVE YOU PAST TENSE. BUT WHEN WE ARGUE THAT ALWAYS COMES UP.  MAN YOU DID IT TOO.

I HAVE FORGIVEN YOU.  I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME BUT IN THE PROCESS OF ME LOVING YOU I FORGOT TO LOVE ME.

I REMAIN FAITHFUL AND TRUE WHAT MORE MUST I DO.

YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU.

LET’S REMEMBER THE GOOD TIMES, THE WALKS IN THE PARK, THE PICNIC, THE MOVIES, THE BUBBLE BATHS, AND ALL THE FUN WE ENJOYED. 

I GAVE YOU ALL ME LOVE. HERE I AM WITH SOMEONE AND I STILL FEEL ALONE.  I GIVE IT MY ALL AND NOW IT’S ABOUT TO FALL.   GOD’S NAME I CONTINUE TO CALL.

I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME, BUT IN THE PROCESS OF ME LOVING YOU I FORGOT TO LOVE ME.

SO YOU WANT TO BE FREE?  LEAVE THE NEST. BE LIKE A BIRD AND FLY I WON’T CRY NO LIE.

I WOKE UP THIS MORNING ANDI LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND REMEMBER TO LOVE ME