How do you exist?  What’s your personal calling card? Do you stand up for what you believe in, or sit down and bitch? While some build bridges, others dig themselves into a ditch. There are many kinds of people, as far as personality types go. Problem makers & Problem starters, Givers & Takers, Movers & Shakers, Optimist & Pessimist, Dishonest Clergymen and Honest Larcenist. How does anyone figure out who, how, or when to trust; nobody knows.  

Some accept the idea of death as a living existence, rather than living life to the fullest; hoping, working, aspiring for more; for some it is easier to pre-accept disappointment, than it is to believe that there is a far better way of life. There are some that are, or choose to be blind to happiness but open to hurt, for the fear of being let down. These types give up and say why try?

Some take delight in what isn’t right. They live in a place where dishonesty equals prosperity, and honesty plays the blame game, a place where disrespect is respected, and a place where fear is the equivalent of respect.  Is glory just a story? Or some plan of deviation put into play with uncompromising positions and people. Predators and prey dysfunctionally play in a world that hate, love, mistrust, and disgust intermingle as friends. Disguised and misguided with pretend grins. The thing is the predators already know how it ends.  The question is, do you? 

Some pretend as if they feel no hurt, these are the types that specialize in causing pain. They’ve already lost their will to attain. All they do is sit back and complain; fueled by hatred and extreme disdain towards the ones who are strong enough to maintain. This type has been around and involved in dysfunction for so long that normalcy is problematic. For the discontented really are the weak. Not strong enough to speak up for anything or anyone. They sit idly by and watch others cry…reveling in the havoc they have wreaked.  These types earn their stripes off the hard work of others. No one knows what beholdeth thy soul, but very wicked is ignorance since days of old. They live in a place where wrong is right and right is wrong. These are the ones who sing their pity party song and trust me; they plan to bring you along. Before they leave penance is paid, one can stand before his own grave. In it he can lie, if he so wishes, but in that hole he wont go alone. He wants to bring you down with him, he wants your soul.

Soul searching means serious self-acceptation rather than following the usual misconceptions. Misery tries to take rule of your life and leave you playing the fool as onlookers spit ridicule. But what you do is not for them. If life is a playbook, then your version of me, myself, and I, should be your first string, your starters; let the nay-Sayers ride the bench. You have to be your own home team because the predator is always out there, always watching and waiting for the opportunity to plan his next scheme. Only you can play your position, forget about the opposition and their opinions.

Some seek inner-peace but cannot find it for they live life on a leash. Never making waves, not even a ripple. They love their life the way it is, nice and simple. Never leading, only following. Swallowing up the lies & becoming tolerant. Tolerance soon turns to obedience. These kind of folk need to be told “who” “what” “when” “where” “why” & “how”. Unbeknownst to them the enemy will befriend the clueless. They become foolish followers bound by unrequited loyalty.

 Follow the cautionary tales of woe, but keep a steady gait as ye go. Long is the journey to change, prosperity is a challenge, it calls for life to be rearranged. There is no guide for the knowledge bare; just dumbfounded looks and foolishly disgusted stares. The “haves” have it and the “have-nots” just don’t. Be enlightened, take the reigns…as you approach that fork in the road of life, you may stand and wonder, left or right. Don’t hesitate to take the direction intuition leads you. Trust in your senses, for they will not deceive you. Approach milestones open-mindedly, & be secure in your decision. Alleviate and be wary of misconceptions, if not ye surely will fall prey to deception. Concentrate on what you hold dear, let faith help you conquer your fears.

Some attempt and some achieve. Those who attempted once and didn’t achieve are left feeling deceived. These types leave a little piece of their soul with every loss, failure or disappointment, but regain a complete renewal in their feeling of self-worth with one little success. Why? For he who never quits can never be broken. He may stumble, he may fall, but surely he will remain humble. For conquering obstacles make these types invincible to the turmoil of failure. But on the other end of the spectrum are those who always attain and maintain. So failure to them is a sort of living death sentence. You see they were never prepared for feelings of inequality, so they can no longer accept themselves. They may project the perception of power, but as soon as the foundation shakes a little they start to crumble. You see, for them, that moment of clarity and reality while standing at that fork in the road is a mind-blowing one; for they no not what to do.

The “have-nots” are always prepared. The “haves” expect everything to be prepared for them. When they hit that fork in the road of life, they freeze; some implode, some explode, and eventually they are stripped bare.  They may endlessly stand there waiting to be to be told what to do, for they are owned, which is the equivalent of death. To maintain their “status” they become the living dead; only living to be led.

Only horses walk through life with blinders on, not people. Either you have what it takes or you don’t. Either you will or you won’t.  Never forgetting that there will always be the “haves” and the “have nots”. You can choose to be a mover & a shaker, or maybe you’re just a

self loathing taker. This type views every situation from a victim’s point of view, when in actuality, he is the predator, and feels equally victimized from having to be put in the situation to do “what he had to do to survive”. How unfortunate for the other guy. This type is a gluttonous fool spewing stupidity like hot volcano lava. I refer to this as 1000 degree ignorance because it destroys everything in its unsuspecting path. While all along the “mover’s and the shaker’s” simply move on, completely unaffected. Which one are you?

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For some a journey can be completed before it even begins. This type will find ways to deny ones-self much needed joy, happiness and peace. Many refuse to accept or choose life. Some feel alienated within their own home and families. They sacrifice themselves and give so freely they are left feeling grossly under-appreciated and barely respected. But still they carry on. Still they stand tall, filled with dignity and pride, also filled with hope of complete acceptance. Subliminally some are very childlike, (although grown) still afraid, (although brave). They are confident (but unsure).

 When it is okay to stop being whom or what is expected of you, and begin living for who you truly feel you are or who you want to be? The fear of judgment and disapproval from loved ones glooms over most like a thunderous cloud waiting to erupt madness and chaos in what is an otherwise peaceful existence. Be it your love choice, career choice, or lifestyle choice; make the choice that is the right one for you. No one walks in your shoes but you. So if you truly want your journey to begin, don’t let someone else’s opinion dictate your decisions. Be not afraid to live by your own rules. Now I’m not suggesting that one should completely throw caution to the wind and start revisiting adolescent mistakes…more like grab life by the seat of its pants and go for it. We only live once.  When you find yourself at that fork in the road, don’t let your journey end before it begins. It is at this place that the leaders will be distinguished from the followers.

For those who may still be unsure, for those of us fighting through life’s many wars, for those of us who just want more, drop it  all off at Gods front door.