IT
I thought for years that I would never find it and then one day I thought I found it in you…

Was it in the way you smiled, or a kiss, a touch, and perhaps maybe even in a dream I had of you…

I purposely searched everywhere in you and I could swear I thought I saw it…

You spoke of it, shared about it, and at times you told me you wished about it…

And so I believed in you, loved you, fought for you, and argued with you…

I did all of that because of you more than I realize I did it for the image of you I wanted my world to accept…

Then just when I was so absorbed in you to where I could no longer see right in front of my own eyes…

You exposed to me the reality of what I thought it truly was…

IT…was just a thought I carried secretly in my heart,
IT…was more of a facade than an emotion,
IT…was no more than a childhood fantasy all grown up.

And so I thought I saw it one day as I walked away from you for good…

But then I became conscious that you and it were no more than just an expectation of what I beyond a doubt wanted to find…
And so good bye and thank you for not being…it.
k.goss