I find myself lost searching for something that is missing in my life.

The dark shadows of night haunt me.

I am surrounded by evil, though I feel safer now than I have ever been.

I find myself at the edge of a cliff.

DO I JUMP?

Do I turn and run back into the shadow filled hallow night?

I catch myself turning back and wondering what is at the bottom of this dark hole.  Thinking will he be there to catch me?

CAN HE CATCH ME?

WHAT IF I JUST FALL?

I turn and look back into the shadows.

Saying to myself "DO I KEEP RUNNING AND HIDING?"

Staying away from thing that haunt me.

I cant fight the evil that lurks anymore,

I close my eyes,

Take one last deep breath,

Whisper I love you into the air, hoping you can hear it.

Then I take on last look in to the cold dark night and I JUMP.

I dont feel myself falling,

I hear screams and crying in the distance,

Realizing it is the cries of hearts I broke, loves that I have lost and people that I have hurt.

I can not repent what I have done in my past.

For that my soul is destined to rot in hell.

IS THAT WHERE I AM FALLING TO?  I guess my actions have determined my fate.  Soon the screams fade away  laughter surrounds me

again I am faced with the past.

The laughter is of happiness that I once had that died and gone away.  I cried, and wondered why I let it go.  Can I or will I ever be that happy again.

I thought I was almost there with you.

Maybe I was and I just didnt realize it.

Ethier way I feel I am doomed.

I fall and fall into that dark hole.

Will it ever end.

Will I ever meet my fate at the bottom.

Thoughts of despair and distruction wind through my head.  Is this it?  Do I really have the chance to not feel love again?  IS IT REALLY OVER?  I know I am nearing the end.  I hear water all around me.  The only thought in my mind is Am I really going to die by natural element?

I quit falling.