New Flavor of Tea

they used to say you can't do that,
wake up and dream a realistic plight.
left so jaded and self hypnotic,
the stars seem so bright,
they're brighter today,
what a comfort to warm me within.

taking a handful of anti-depressants,
what a depressing way to live,
conversations in my mind,
with people i've never met.
just glad to finally have met people,
that won't stab me in the back. 

confusing relations while i sip my new flavored tea,
thinking about what to overcome next, 
too bad i'm scared to even see what's next,
just close my eyes and take it all in.

holding onto the golden years,
to bad the price of gold is diving,
and my value is dropping,
and the things i value are dropping as well.

guess that's what you get when you live alone,
on your own pedestal.