suicide drive

Slather on my lifeless darkness. 
Shielding me from any light.
Succumbing to my numbness,
Only to give in, only to fall and die.
Should stay, maybe I should fight.
fight? for life? Fight For lies?
Rather should I end the daily plight?

Running toward some nowhere,
Stay put, lifeless, without a care?
Showing inflicted pain from my torture,
Hopeless, unknown fixes. Knowing nothings fair.

Random conflicting passions,
Taking everthing seeming sane.
Random conflicting irrations,
Cheating only to win lifes game.

Living life as is, knowing lifes blind lies.
Crooked souless, others and thier critical judging eyes.
Would I......Should I remain voiceless, dumb, & blind?
should I just rather cry?
Should I just rather die?

Slather on my darkness
Shielding any & all light -
What if..instead..slyly
allowing in my shielded light.
Drying off my chosen darkness,
The one i know embraces me
Each of always darkness, cold and night.

Slather on my darkness
Wait I see my prison key
Seductive,Soothing, voiceless remedy....
Living in a constant dark and endless plight.
Slather on my darkness.

E.T.C
W.E.F.A.N.E.W.S
4-18-07/1-2-2010
original/revised