THE INTERNET - A blessing or a Curse

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    THE INTERNET - A blessing or a Curse

    They met on the internet
    Perhaps harmless
    Perhaps not
    But what’s the distinction
    It altered my life
    All the same
    Unknown faces
    Unknown lives
    In search of a liaison
    Behind everyone’s eyes
    They began talking
    Sharing intimate details
    Information and frustrations
    That was intended
    To be shared and explored
    In their day by day lives
    Taken and stolen
    Given to another
    As a replacement for
    Me his wife

    Who is this other women?
    A thief in my life
    Did she even pause to explore
    What she was doing
    Pilfering from another’s life
    Did she even ask?
    Have you explored this
    With your wife
    Or have any idea
    The moments
    The joys, the sorrows
    Of 37 years
    Hanging in
    And believing
    That in our twilight years
    There would be time
    To be together
    Travel, discover more
    Children living their own lives
    Being grandma and grandpa together
    A grandchild’s delight

    If not for the internet
    So much more
    I would have not known
    The other affairs
    In and out of the years
    The other women
    And a few men
    Answers so many questions
    His lack of commitment
    And when disheartened
    His adamant NO
    I won’t deal with
    In counseling with you
    This our marriage
    Don’t want to
    Make it healthier together
    For me
    And for you

    So I accept
    I have to admit
    If not for the internet
    My marriage would have
    Continued to live on
    An illusion
    A lie
    Only existing in my head

    So as I walked the beach
    Alone last night
    Watching the couples
    Grieving the you and me
    I knew in my spirit
    As I sat at that table
    Sipping slowly a drink
    Listening to music
    That took me back to our first years
    The smell of the salt air
    The wind on my face
    The waves rolling in and out
    And with them my tears
    Remembering Wollaston Beach
    Also the fishing pier
    We smelled the same salt air

    So with you or without you
    The gift is still there
    The gift of life
    The wind on my face
    The waves rolling in and out
    A different place
    But ever the same
    So the you and me have changed
    But not the beauty of life

    So what is the answer?
    Is the internet
    A blessing or a curse
    Does it help to reveal
    The truth
    Through the illusion or the lie
    Or does it short circuit
    The journey
    The process
    Of keeping a love alive.

    04/04/09

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