thinking
As I sit here alone in my mind I wonder about what might have been
I wonder what could have happened if I wouldn’t have gotten out of the car
What would my life have been like?
Would I still be blessed with my angels-my daughters?
Would my road be as bumpy as it has been?
Would I have the experience and friends or acquaintances that I have now?
Would I have gone through hell and held hands with the devil?
Would I have been knocked to the floor and saved by the hand of god?
Would I have been cut so deep that the scars will never be forgotten?
Would I have washed my hands with the blood of the innocent?
Would I have felt the coldness and darkness of being alone?
Would I have felt the freedom after it was all said and done?
These thoughts imprinted in my mind
Never to be shared except to you
I have to stare into my eyes everyday as I look in the mirror
I have to deal with the pain of the past
I have to deal with the pain of the future and what it will bring
I have to force myself to get up everyday
I am the only one that knows the way
As I sit here and wonder about me and wonder how it would be different
If I would have turned left instead of right
Walked through the day instead of the night
If I would have stopped instead of jumping off the cliff
But I wouldn’t be writing these words that you read, that I read
If my life wouldn’t have gone the way it is
So as I sit here and wonder about what might have been
I’m glad I got out of the car and shut the door and never looked back
What would my life have been?
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