Untitled "another one about my gma"

In times like these when im feeling this low
I wish i was able to hear your voice to tell me so.
 Never know how much someone means until they have gone away
Now more than anything id love your advice to know what to say.
People continue to push just to see if i am going to break
Ive stood my  ground holding strong but how much more can i take?
Yes im aware lifes obstacles will always take place and my kindness to others will continue to slap me in the face
When one thing goes good three more things end up going bad
Leaving my emotions confused not knowing weather i should cry or get really mad
Your guidance always made problems seem so small
Now i feel the weight on my shoulders and your not here at all
They say if you believe enough that you will always be near
I've never lost hope and constantly prayed that you were here
When i seen failure you seen accomplishment and i made you proud
Its always harder to smile while looking towards a cloud
Remembering those words you always use to say
No matter how hard it gets theres always a brighter day
Defeat was once a part of me for so long
Sometimes letting it all go feels somewhat wrong
No i never forgot our struggles make us who we are today
And during all this pain is when we somehow find our way
Even though its hard that your gone i still want to thank u
Its your warm and loving memories that seem to get me through
Everything that i have done is because you believed in me
Until we meet again i will keep makin u proud you will see