Your Kind Of Love

                           How many times would I cry
                                everytime I found out you deceive me
                           How many times would I die
                                from depression and self-pity
                           How many times would I sigh
                                for contentment that never comes
                           How many times would I pray to God
                                for help and perseverance.

                         
                           How many times would I learn to
                                forgive without pretending
                           How many times would I count for
                                 blessings painted only in dreams
                           How many times would I live and
                                 re- lived from survival
                           How many times would I succumb
                                  to self- surrender?


                           How much more times would I endure
                                  the hurts you gave me
                           How much longer will I grasp for breath
                                  as if drowning from the sea
                           What really kind of love are you giving
                                   me now,
                           It puzzles me so much when you said
                                    you love me somehow.