I still remember the way I felt I felt my dream come crashing down

I felt like my world was ending I cried when I went over every detail

I didn’t want life or conversation. It took a while, weeks or even more

to settle down and be ‘normal’ again. I thought about you constantly;

I thought I had lost my soul mate. I thought about you less and less

until was just a fleeting thought made me think of you and me, us.

What I thought was a door closing was really another door opening;

One that would lead to the future, a bright and shining future for me.

I thought that it couldn’t get better, but it could, it should, and it did.

Gone are the days of feeling down whenever your name is spoken.

Instead, I think of how much different my life would be in this moment

if you hadn’t destroyed my world. I would be lonely and missing you

Because long distance is too hard, but because you let me fly alone,

I was able to find my true love. The one that really should be here.

The one that is so in love with me that he never wants to go home.

The one that talks about the future by using “we”, “our” and “you”.

The one that imagines “our” kids and wants to take me on cruises;

who tells me he loves me subtly like in the way he holds me close

or how he kisses me when leaving or how he lets me rant and scream

without trying to calm me down because he knows I’ll calm down

in ten minutes and come to cuddle when I want to have the comfort.

That is the guy you allowed me to find when you broke up with me

And that is why I will always be grateful that you let me go.