I feel so weird... I am a little self conscious about my poems but I have to overcome that someday... I found this cleaning my room tonight and thought I would share...

It has taken me so long to come to terms with all of this,
From being deceived by molestation, rape, hugs and even being kissed.

God I wanted to feel that special love but this was not the way,
You fondled with me so much I felt like tooth decay.

You thought because I was so young that I would not remember,
You touched me everyday since I was 8, its been 13 years from this past September.

And years would go pass before I see your face again,
And all the counseling and therapy I received you thought would make it all end.

Well you are wrong you sick, disgusting perv I still have flashbacks and nightmares not a day goes by,
Sometimes I get ticked and need to cry but where you are you will be until you finally die.

Is this a bad way to think? Some would say yes,
But you have to understand these are my tears, heartache, and flashbacks and they will never rest.

So this is how I have felt for the past 13 years,
And from all my anger and upsetting I finally came to terms with this.