dead inside

she thought couldn't live any longer
then he came 
he lifted her up and made her like new again
he made her fake smile turn into a real one
he said he loved her and he would never leave her
but then he was gone in a blink on an eye
she thought she failed him 
she thought she wasn't good enough for him
she thought she was the reason he had left 
she was hurt and broken even worse than before
she just wanted to not live anymore 
she no longer trusts anyone
she no longer lets anyone in
she has put her walls up higher then ever before
she wishes there were someone, 
anyone to save her from the hell that she is in
she is about to give up on everything again
this time she may leave this earth
she may pull the trigger this time
and no one can save her 
cause no one knows that she is dying inside
ready to end her life at any moment in time...