Faceless Child

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Teen suicide runs rampant these days.  I never quite understand what motivates a child to take his or her own life.  It's a sad reality and seems to be getting worse.  Look for the signs and be vigilant.  Someone may be quietly reaching out to you....

Faceless Child

Child of wonder, bore preciously.
A gift from God, statistically.
A bundled joy of hopes and dreams,
A faceless doll with broken seams.

~

Like a million ants appearing magically,
drawn to the perfumed scent of verminal stench,
of potato rot, flicked cigarettes and tater tots.
Wanted, needed...discarded, unheeded.
A constant burden,
 caught in a turnstile of mundane gyrations.
Laughing sadly, wanting badly,
 crying gladly, glaring madly.
Needing to be held together...
with tape and Elmer's glue.
Never taken seriously...in need of bear hugs and kisses.
Lost self-esteem, found visine - persecution, blame, tempted to feel...bloated, blistered.
Trying to fit in...to size 48 jeans - bell-bottoms, extra-wide loops.  Cursing, hurting myself while the world watches quietly, ignorantly, calmly, blindly.
Aroused, cared for, a temporary solution...of vodka and tonic. Tangerine Listerine, iced cold chlorine.
A quiet place.  Secluded, poluted.  Sequestered, serene.
A permanent escape, only illusionary,
Contusionary, quite contrary.
A happy space with velvet walls and purple passion fruit, cellophane mirrors, twinkling ceiling stars and chimney soot.
Mindless adventures, never leaving my room...filled with thoughts of injustice, laughter...of the sinister kind.
Trusted blinders on my eyes' windows, the venetian kind...portals to a world I can't understand,
Can't cope with, find reason...for living, for dying, forgiving, denying.
I am a marionette pulled by strings that disappear into clouds of mental anquish.
Led to believe, bred to conceive, to repent.
To wade through a cesspooled,
Cubicled, tunnel of escape.
Wanting to feel, alive with purpose, with compassion, with meaning...to call my friends.
Forgetting what it's all about,
What the future holds..in doubt.
Reaching for solutions...of vodka and tonic,
Listerine and grenadine, NyQuil, Dayquil,
Turpentine jellybeans.
I am a child, a faceless child, suffering from...
Imperfection, neglection, seeking resurrection.
Conformity, sobriety,
A permanent vacation...from society.
Don't laugh at me, don't cry for me...
Out loud, insanely, profanely.
Understand, this was all unplanned...carefully. 
Thought out, but spur-of-the-moment.
It'll only hurts...the one's I love and those I thought I did.
I am invincible, invisible, impermeably broken.
My well laid plan cannot withstand,
Scrutiny, starvation, incarceration.
My blessed room, my cubicle tomb.
The place I run and hide.
I am a butterfly out of season.  I have reached my peak.
My wings are tired.  I have conspired.
It's tranquility I seek.
A step-stooled stairway to heaven, or hell.
It's hard to tell. 
I cannot dwell...or linger any longer.
Just 2 steps to salvation's creation, to the edge of being...
Bitter persuasion, contemplation, perpetuation.
The tension's there, a mindless stare.
Thoughts are running everywhere.  I don't care.
I hear music...muffled commotion, silent emotion...
a tingling sensation, a last temptation.
Standing on the threshold of a dream,
Reality, a viable escape.
Afraid, curious, defiant.
Committed, serious, reliant.
A final step toward eternity.
The terminal plunge, the taut...lesson of life,
The inevitable loss of...everything I've ever strived for.  
Consciousness, then realization, cold pervasion.
The pain is minimal, never really there.
I hear the final footsteps...of a life gone by,
Slowly slipping away.
My mind is drifting, still intact,
Circling a drain of cerebral black.
My feet are dangling.  I am floating on air.
 Uninhibited, undenied, walking on a cloud 2 feet high.
Stretching eagerly for another side.
My world is fading, disappearing...
Right before my very eyes.
I am drifting down a river of solitude.
Relaxation is seeping in,
As I extend toward an approaching light.
Darkness prevails, resistance curtails,
No more struggles...
To fight the demons I have learned to embrace.
I am now free of the torment, confusion, resolution.
 My need to escape subsides...behold, peace.
I am now truly alive.

~

I was a child with hopeless dreams.
Bore preciously, raised normally.
Caught in a whirlwind's soliloquy.
A blemish of burden to those I met,
An incurable disease, unwashable speck.
A faceless child that no one sees,
Onbended knees,
With crooked neck.

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InfinityKnott commented on Faceless Child

10-19-2010

“The most loving parents and relatives commit murder with smiles on their faces. They force us to destroy the person we really are: a subtle kind of murder.” by: Jim Morrison

MootPoint commented on Faceless Child

09-28-2010

What a chaotic ride... as must be for most teenagers in this age.

Savant commented on Faceless Child

11-13-2009

I enjoyed the freedom of thought in this piece. I am not sure if everyone's mind works like this but I can relate to random, specific thoughts. Laughing sadly and crying gladly, at that point I was hooked in. Great wordplay. No need to be like others, your writing has an identity of it's own and it's enjoyable.

Maleficent commented on Faceless Child

11-03-2009

This is truly insightful... intense raw emotion... amazing write. ~ ☮

knight4696 commented on Faceless Child

10-04-2009

Wow - Kevin this is unbelievable. As I'm sure your aware - this subject is a difficult one, but needs to be conveyed. Yes, it's a very long poem as you stated - but definately worth the read. There are so many emotional lines in this. I can really feel the desperation. Again, a remarkable poem from a remarkable poet! Great Job! Hey ... I too have a poem about suicide called "In A Blink Of An Eye" It's not a long poem - but I found it very difficult to write. Check it out - let me know what you think. Thanks pal, Ken

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