~ I am missing U so much ~

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just words from my heart, collect from over the years of missing my buddy, my hero, KIA 11/8/04

~ I am missing U so much ~

I dreamt of you last night, it has been awhile since i have last seen that beautiful smile........... I have been missing you so endlessly, I don't think the place in my heart will ever be filled, No.......... I know it won't be. your irreplaceable. you touched my life in a way that no other has ever nor will, you were my inspiration in the dark chaos that had surronded me. Last night as I dreamt, it was so peaceful and Beautiful and just to see you for that breif moment was a moment i will cherish, you were playing football, and you smiled and touched my finger and ran off to do what you do, " inspire all" Stacy and the boys where there, it was so beautiful, thank you for bringing joy and love to the hearts of all and come see me again, I miss you endlessly buddy, I love you and miss you and will be praying for your loved ones........ God Bless you my, hero.........."
love your buddy always.. of FREE IN USA

"Ramey,
Thinking of you, so often. Obvioulsy of your mother too, I can't believe you both are forever gone from this world; I honestly used to think this world couln't get any more unloving, unwelcoming when we lost you, I was wrong. Your mother was an amazing woman as I have told you so many times before. She had become such a blessing in my life after you; such a woman of wisdom and always offering inspiring advice to lift my spirits as well as those around. ( you obvioulsy already knew this, look how wonderful you were, only an angle could have raised another) *smile* I love you both endlessly and miss you each so endlessly. Your lil brothers, wow they both are amazing. Branden wow, sweety these two young men blow my mind away each time I am blessed to be with them. Lil Bryce, is so strong yet able to open his emotions up and let you see and feel his pain. & lil Brent, wow.... this lil guy is so loving, so amazing, he is so strong, so stuborn *smile* he holds in his emotions to make sure others are ok, wow serioulsy I see so much of you in each of them. all your amazing strenghts and Pams too, and obvioulsy your additudes *smile* but honeslty I love those two lil guys like they are my own lil brothers,& your stace....... another wow. ( obvioulsy you already know) she is so amazing. who would have thought any of this would ever happen? let alone, meeting a woman devoted to your family long after you would leave for Heaven? she is so devoted. such a good big sister to those two lil guys, *what a blessing* than you have Timmy? another wow, Branden serioulsy you were always such an amazing inspiration in all our lives that your absence have devestated us beyound repair, we do what we can, but miss you endlessly and daily. Please watch over Timmy. I don't know him but had the pleasure of seeing his devotion to you, your stace, the boys and pam at the hospital and after. He deals with this similar to me ( work it off) he is such a gentle man, but I can see he is hurting deeply, I am praying for him, for everything, for stace, the boys. Just be with them, watch over them and guide them to make the right choices. oh..... your beautiful Cusion (J) wrote and read an inspiring poem about your mother, wow is all I can say, but honey, watch over her... she is a great girl and she has good intentions, I pray she will have a impact on some of your friends lives. *smile* well my sweet friend, I miss you endlessly and love you forever, give your momma a hug for me, tell her how much I love her and how very much her humor is missed. I love you both so much, until we meet again. your buddy

"Branden,
I have not written in a while nor have I been by. I had thought, that perhaps if i don't acknowledge it than maybe my mind would forgett all about it and i could trick myself into thinking your still out there. ( sad way of thinking, i know) obviously it did not work.
everyday is a sad reminder that your gone. The whole world seems like it went crazy to me. ( prehaps it just me)
either way things are soooooooooo diffrent. Though i have great faith and know that regardless of why this tragic inncident happened, your in Heaven. a much greater place, a much more peaceful place and we all will see you again. It is just really hard to let go. I feel so sad for stacy, for your mother and brothers. My heart can't bare to read stacy's beautiful letters to you. each time I cry for her. well i can't really find the right words to express all this, but I really miss you. I miss you so much and all that you have done. But more than anything, i miss you so much for stacy and your mother and brothers. Until we all meet again, i will keep praying for your loved ones. Thank you so much Ramey for everything. ( miss you)"
"~Branden~
How the time has sped bye, (though the pain has paused, still hard to believe)I was going to come on your Birthday, But I thought I would give your loved ones there much needed time. ( I came to this message site, to write a message in honor of your birthday) when I seen the message from stacy, i couldn't bare to write a word. all i could do is cry. ( you and her,should have never had to deal with something like this, you were such an awsome person! it is just so wrong, so sad, so heartaching, sometimes just the sadness i feel for your stacy, and family alone is enough to tear your heart apart. I miss you so much, but it could never compare to the loss they are feeling, and I am so sad for them. ( I am sorry to feel that way, but it seems these days, I am weak)I truly wish things were diffrent.
I haven't seen stace in quiet some time. I pray for her daily and send her stuff now and than to let her know i am here if she needs anything, But after you were killed Branden, I have found out that words do not ease a pain like this, not actions, not gifts, not hugs, nothing does.
( something like this does not have a fix) I use to think that just being there for someone, was enough, now i have learned that sometimes, we can't fix it. Branden, I can't believe soon it will be 1 year since you have been gone. ( it doesn't seem real) the world is so cold, people act as if death does not matter. * can you believe some one gave me a Sorrow Not book* basically telling me that, i should not have sorrow over this. " what has the world come to?" My faith in the Lord is strong, and i have hope. But my faith in people has been destroyed. ( they stink) I miss you so much, I wish things were diffrent. not just for me, but mostly for stace, pam, bryce, brent. they miss you so much, so , so much
"Ramey,
It has been far too long, I can't even belive it, still after all this time. the pain does not subdue, it is like an endless ache. your memory is very much alive still and will always be. though your presence is missed more and more each and every day.
I sit in silence and watch all those around me, also mourning your loss, though we all hurt, it is so amazing to see so many people touched by you, by the man you were, by all you had done. when I think of you, I smile, even though my heart is crying. your mother is so strong, she is doing all she can to honor you, ( some people have even said she needed to do more, can you believe that crap?) Stacy, she is hurting so very much, though she trys to smile on the outside. what a wonderful young woman she is. your little brothers Bryce and Brent, wow, those two amazing young boys miss you so much, they hurt endlessly but to see them speak of you is just breath taking. when they tell stories of you, there eyes lite up, they are so very proud to be your brothers. I wish you could be here for us all, it doesn't seem fair, really. ( but who am i to decide) it just feels like it was too early, too soon, we needed more time, if not even for me, atleast for them ( pam, stace, bryce, brent) well though my words can not change a thing, I will miss you forever. this world is so much sadder with out you in it. I will never forget you and all you have done, and how much your touched my heart. miss you forever buddy."
of Land of the free
"If only words could describ all these painful emotions, I went to see your dress blues. I didn't think it would be so emotion ( my goodness, they were just clothes you had worn) but the moment I seen them my heart broke. I guess I had forgotten just how tall you were and how proud you had once looked wearing those honorable clothes, something you belived so strongly in. I belived so strongly in you. Your still so much a part of me and it is really hard for others to understand. I guess since know one has walked in my shoes, noone could truly understand what a blessing you had been in my life. words can not even begin to explain but i know you were my angel on earth to show me the way to the light again; and you did just that. (thank you) I try and honor your memory in everything I do, there is not a moment that goes by that your not in thought.
I pray for your stacy, and for your loved ones, I know they are hurting still so deeply. ( i am in the process of getting something designed in your honor) for a suprise later to your mother and stacy, though we can no longer have you here with us my buddy, this is something that will shine in your glory. Branden, I must go for the moment, but please know that we all miss you and love you so much, that we will never forget you and the man you were, that you remain in our hearts forever, and that one woman who gave you her heart (stacy) is such an amazing woman that is dealing with alot of pain right now, please be with her and give her strenght and I pray that she still knows just how much you love her Branden, you made her such a wonderful person, she made you such a wonderful person also. God Bless you buddy, my hero. missing you so much.
all my inspirtation has died,"
Freedom thanks to my best buddy ramey of America
It seems when I sit down and try to put what my heart is feeling down on the screen, the message can not get from my heart, to the typeboard. My Goddness, it has been far to long, since you have been gone. I had to accept it, but I still can not believe it. a few weeks ago your troop came home from Iraq, it was great that they came home, but so devestating, becuase you were not with them. I supose after all this time I should have known that, but somewhere deep in my heart, I hoped maybe there was some tragic mistake and when your troop came home, by a miraculous miracle, you would just walk in smiling. I know it sounds crazy, but I guess sadly, the reality of your death makes me kind of crazy in my heart, I don't really know how to feel about it. I am so sad, so angry, so hurt, and so numb at times. I feel so selfish that i feel like that, and than i feel completly helpless to reach out to your loved ones. I have not seen or spoken to Stacy, since you have been gone. She is such a strong woman, hurting so much inside, but holding herself together. I know how much my heart aches and you were only like a brother to me, I can not imagine how Stacy must be feeling, or how your (family) mother is feeling. Your mother, is hurting so deep inside, But she carries herself so strong, ( i see where you got most of your wonderful personality and strenght) I can imagine in her heart, she must be so angry, that you are gone, I can only imagine the heart gripping pain of a mother, with the loss of her child.
Branden, you truly are missed. from your family, friends, loved one, and so many others. there is not a day that passes when your smile does not pop into my mind. I miss you so much, and I just pray that in these hard times you are with your family (mom) and stacy, they are hurting so much, well, I have to go, my heart aches too much ........ GONE but NEVER FORGOTTEN
SEMPER FIDELIS.... WE MISS YOU"

Branden,
Miss you Buddy,"
Tina of America

In Honor of Branden Ramey,
Today, As I read the messages left for an amazing man, an amazing Marine, a true hero. tears came to my eyes and such a sadness to my heart as I read the moving message to Branden from his finace Stacy lee. How completely horriable that people could even accuse such a thing. (dating) obviously those of you, whom would assume such a heartless thing (oviously did not witness the love between Branden and Stacy) Branden Ramey was and still is, the very beat of Stacy's aching heart. Her day's revolved around him. such emotion you would witness when she spoke of him (constanly *smile*, and when he was near) Branden made her whole world rock, she loved him till no end and still does. countless times Branden came to the school were stacy and I attended. each time I would sneak him back to suprise her (she was in class) no matter what, when she seen Branden she stopped what ever she was doing and ran and leaped into his arms. (right out of class, in the middle of session) the love that Stacy and Branden shared and always will, is only a love that one imagines a fairy tale to be. (but the love they share is very real) the day Branden was killed, all of those whom knew and loved him. a part of those people died, expeacially his family, his parents, and Stacy. Stacy lee, lost the most important part of life that day, the other half of her, her soul, her heart!
No matter what we as individuals have been threw, and the pain we have felt can look into the heart of others and try and assume we know what a person is really feeling or going threw. as humans we try to be compassionate and understand, we also hurt. But to place blame on such a girl, who lost everything? That is just wrong and very heartless. Branden Ramey was one of the best men, I have ever known, he was my best buddy, I believe in all Branden stands for, and I support all the choices he has made, so for all of those whom ever you are made such acusations on stacy lee, What type of man do you think Branden was? don't you think that Branden was wise enough to choose a woman who would stand beside him no matter what? don't you think he would choose a woman he could trust? The fact that Branden asked Stacy to marry him, (unite and be as one heart, body and soul) should tell you that he believed in her, and trusted her for better or worse. Those of you whom bad mouth Branden's heart and soul, you are dishonoring what Branden believed in.
* Branden died for our country, for our freedom, for the freedom of all* so since I have nothing but admiration for my buddy, I step forward and say this......... people please, don't fall apart, don't bad mouth, don't dishonor. Branden was a man of Honor, Respect, (always faithful) he was loyal and caring. Branden was an amazing man, he would give you the shirt off his back. he smile was gold. I believe that Branden would be truly sad to see, any of us act in a hurtful way to anyone, exspeacilly those he loved. Branden being taken away from us all, should not make us act foolish hurt those around us, but it should make us realize that Branden died making a diffrence, now it is time for us, to take a stand and follow his lead, what diffrences should we be making? good ones as he did.
I know that so many are hurting with his loss, but Branden would truly want everyone sticking together and supporting one another, not trying to hurt each other. God Bless each one of you, and mostly. God Bless my hero Branden Ramey *let freedom ring*"
Tina.J of America
Branden,
What a amazing day it is today, the sun is out, the birds are singing. a sure sign that spring is here. *smile* as I was walking with Emmy, a woman asked me who that handsome man was on my pin? Before I could even say a thing Emmy spoke out, That is Branden he died in Iraq. He was my mommy's best buddy. The woman looked at your picture on my pin and smiled. she said that it was very sad. Emmy smiled at me, and said " it is ok, Branden is a Hero, He is with Jesus in Heaven and Branden is not sad" it has always amazed me when she speaks like so...... but it is so true. The truth a child brings to such subjects.*smile* I miss you so very much, your memory is in everything I see and do, your family misses you so much also.... I know that your in heaven and what an honor. I miss you, see you again one day my hero.
miss you, love always your buddy."
Freedom Thanks to my hero Branden Ramey of America
"Ramey,
it seems as if just yesterday you were taken away. Though it has been almost four months. It just seems so unreal. Like, you will still walk threw the door. Praying for some sort of miricle. (though I know this could never be.) Time does not seem to get easier, it is only a sad reminder that it has been just that long with out the wonderful presence of you in our lives. I feel as if I can not shed another tear, and than at the same time I feel as though I can not stop crying inside. With every sun rise and sun set, I miss the person that was such a good friend to me. I miss the man that brought a smile to so many around him. I miss the man that treated all with respect. I miss the wonderful effect that you had on all the people around you. To tell you the sad truth. you were the glue that held so many things together. now since you are no longer here, people are changing. we are all so sad, that it is hard to be the person you helped us to be. the smiles we once shared now have turned into anger. were laughter filled the rooms,now just heart filled tears echo off the walls. you truly were a gift from heaven and you showed us how to love, care, smile, and have joy. I miss you so very much and I know that you are in Heaven watching over us, and what an honor that is. (but we rather have you here) Oh.... ok, I will stop complaining now, and being selfish. I know that your in a much better place, but my sadness wants me to just be so selfish and wish you back here. (i am sorry)
It is just, I miss you so much.
Branden, you were such a good friend to me, like my brother and I have never ever had someone like that, so it is so very hard for me to let you go. Just the other day, I seen this man, He resemebled you, as you once were. his walk,his stance, his eyes and his smile. I watched him for a long time with tears in my eyes....... knowing that sadly you are forever gone to this earth, but for one moment in watching him, you were there. It was the way he spoke with the children, it was his gestures. If only for a moment, I wanted to go over to him and just hug him. That is when I realized how much I still miss you, how much I will always miss you. People have told me, " get over it, it is time to move on" that is bull****, This is not something I will ever get over. The loss of you, will be with me for the rest of my life. I don't want to forget you, all you have done for me, will always be with me. sadly though i had to except your death. but i will never get over it. to me, you were not just some story in the paper. just a puase in my life, and now i can move on. you were my friend, my brother and my hero. so... I miss you so much. I think of your loved ones day in and day out and pray for them. becuase if my heart aches this much, than i can only imagine the pain of those that loved you so very much, like your father, sandy, your mother, stacy, bryce, brent, mellisa, nick, your grandparents. ( and your Marine Brothers) your friends. ok..... Branden, though your in Heaven..... I miss you so much. Love always and forever. your buddy."
forever remembering my Hero of America
Ramey,
A new year has slipped in with the silent memories of yesterday. It seems as though it was just yesterday I seen your smile.
you were cutting a steak for stacy. than walking around with a rifle shooting God knows what? out in stacy's field. your target was hit and you collected your prize. dang you had a great shot. that smile you displayed sticks in my every thought. If only i could bring you back to that moment and I don't know? trade places? something? even though you are my hero and always were. And i am so proud of you and always have been, i know you volunteered to go to iraq and that was so honorable. I know you loved your job and wanted to be there. But still... if i could go back to that day, I would keep you here with us. regardless of what you wanted. *smile*
Honestly this world is at a great horrific loss with out you in it. people just are not made like you any more. your mother hit the jack pot when she created you.*smile* after you were killed, I never thought a day would come when I could smile, at the sound of your name or at your memory.
though pain is in my heart and i miss your each and every day, when i think of you, i smile each time. just the thought of who your were, who you made me, the friendship your showed me, all the encouragement in my dispear. all the fun and stupid things we said. *smile* you truly touched my life, not only were you an amazing friend to me, I also found a friend in stacy. she is an amazing woman, so strong. she holds you with her in everything she does. she already has the marriage planned for the very first moment she reunites with you. *smile* now that is some woman. *miss you very much, *"
lasting memories of Freedom thanks to the brave like my hero Branden Ramey
"~ Never Forgotten~
Standing in silence, while tears fall to the ground. Emptiness fills the hearts of many come to say one last Goodbye. The hardest farwell, to all those whom knew and loved Branden Ramey
A true Hero, many admire those in the movies and on the court,But not I. For my Hero wore a Marine Uniform and the price he paid for freedom was his life.
It has almost been a month since he was taken from us all, and yet my heart still can not except he is for ever gone. its as if only yesterday i seen that smile that charmed so many, heard that laugh that encluded all those around. He was here for only a short time, but touched everyone around him. He is a True Hero, An angel in disguise. I will never forget him. ( his brother shared a story of how just days before he was killed, he called home and told them of how he was friends with a small child in iraq and that they were learning each others langues and how the little boy came in to harms way and Branden ran to try and save him. He risked his life that day, Branden was aware of the price. NOW THAT IS A TRUE HERO"
Unknown of Usa

"In Honor of a Fallen Hero,
since the day i met Ramey, he was a very important part of my life. I can not capture into words how wonderful of a person he truly was becuase this web site is not large enough. (smile)
He believed in me when noone else had and he was the best buddy a girl could ask for. This is the most horrific loss any family should endure, and stace, he loved her like no other. she was the beat that made his heart work. i witnessed thier fairy tale romance (way to often) smile. they truly loved one another. Branden took great honor in serving his country. he believed in making this whole world a better place and he treated everyone with respect. I remember when me and stace stopped in to visit him while he was working, (recruiting) he had to make a Marine Board.He took so much pride in making it great, he even went to the fabric store to get red fabric for the back round. when he showed us the finished product. it was amazing. made you want to get up and enlist in the marines (smile) he truly touched my life, and everyday i will honor his memory, this world is some much sadder with out our ramey in it. May we all feel peace in knowing that he loved what he did, he was great at it, he is a hero and one day we will see him again in heaven. and stace than you will meet your prince and marry as you should have.
i am here if you ever need me, and his family also. GOD BLESS Salute (miss you ramey)"
~T.J~ of Rockford Il USA

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Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.

Allen Ginsberg (1926-1997) U.S. poet.

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~ I am missing U so much ~ 0
~ Unknowing~ 1
~ From the start~ 2
~ Branden~ 2
(((((((((( An Angel amoung us)))))))))) 3
~~~~~~~My Emily~~~~~~~~
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~ Witnessing a love, I shall Never forget~ 1
********* Kneeling in the hands of our maker********
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Let him rest in peace 1
part 3 ( Audrey) 0
part 2 (Yesterday's Tragidy) 0
part 1 ( I miss you) 2
Falling Ashes 1
~Sadness Of Yesterday~ 1