If I die today,

Would I know?

Will there be fire on me, or will I glow?

If I die today,

It would be about time.

I am so sick of loosing my mind.

I am so sick of walking this line.

There are so many things that I could not find.

I am so sick of reading all these signs.

When I never get them right, and it only makes me feel blind.

If I die today,

I would be happy.

Would some one hold me?

Would some one grab me?

Will I go before my pappy?

There would be no need to worry if my hair was nappy.

If I die today,

I would be grateful.

This world is tasteless not tasteful.

This world for me is to darn hateful.

If I die today,

Would I even be mourned?

Or is this world too full of scorn?

Makes me wish I was never born.

I would rather be something different, like an ear of corn.

Being human only makes me feel torn.

My heart has been hurt, my heart has been worn.

If I die today,

All my possessions would be sold.

If I die today,

There would be a lot of stories told.

All I know is life was cold.

I was getting tired, and life was getting old.

I did not want to be a part of the mold.

I was always alone and bold.

Under pressure, never once did I fold.

If I die today,

I wander who would take me.

Good or Evil, which would forsake me?

Would I go to the Devil and he would rape me?

Or would I go to God, because he doesn't hate me.

If I die today,

What will I have to show?

I really don't know which way I would go.

But I am sure I will go with the flow.

All the way through my life I was a hoe.

Will I get there fast or will it be slow?

Will I be surrounded by friends, or will I be surrounded by foes?

In death will I get to feel the highs, and not just the lows?

Or will it be the same as normal, just the way crap goes.

I did not like being cheated.

I do not like the way I been treaded!

I do not like the way I have been beated!

I do not like being defeated!

If I die today,

With me that's kool that's ok.

My daughter would get paid.

And I will finally get my way.

For over 30 years, that is why I pray.

Here is not where I want to stay.

In the stars is where I want to play.

From Earth I want to go far, far away.

THAT’S WHAT I WANT,

If I die today,