I never got what I needed

This is a cruel place,

With a foul smell & foul taste.

This world is not what it should be,

It was not made for me.

I never got what I needed & I pleaded

All I feel is defeated.

Lost hurt & now conceited.

What have I done to deserve this,

Why is love & compassion what I miss.

Never had a dad,

Life has always felt so incomplete

Always messed up never neat

I feel as though I am condemned

I feel my heart will never mend

I feel so left out of the loop

Perched alone here on this stoop

Stuck with all these roosters in this chicken coop

Waiting for life to be more than a bunch of poop

I never got what I needed & I pleaded

Like a break line I’ve been bleeded

All I feel is defeated

Stuck in this world where no one cares

Ask anyone life is never fair

We have enough food for all but no one shares

Everyone always wants more or something else

Everyone is only for them self

You ain’t nobody if you don’t have wealth

You’d be lucky to have insurance like health,

I am just lucky to be alive with good health

Living in a world where money is tight

This has been a long and hard fight

Surrounded by evil does not feel right

Redemption finally just might be insight

I feel like I’ve been starved

My life & heart has been pre carved

More than two hundred rounds just spared

I spent my whole life behind invisible bars

I never got what I needed & I pleaded

I never liked the way I got treated

I only feel defeated

I also feel depleted

Most time’s I feel not needed

I feel I can’t breathe this

So I wrote & now you read this

I never got what I needed & I pleaded.