Damn, lucky me. I found this prefect person that I love to death. That will treat me so right in and out of bed. A love that I've searched my own life to find now stares me directly into my eyes as I stare back I am thinking to myself. I feel you as you caress my eyes and lean my head to let you know I am feeling you too. As we spend more and more time together I began to see what my future would be like with you. Since we are two of a kind with the same visions in mind. Kids a better job great finances that white picket fence and a dog. Shit in so many ways we would have it all. I see what I've needed all this time in my life when I think of you, support, emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual. We can talk on many different levels. I understand you and you me, this feeling I can't believe. I cry when you are not around, when you are around you make me smite. I feel your energy every where I go, with your love new heights I know I can soar, no need for more. We laugh, joke and play and when I'm down, to make me feel better only one word you have to say.

Damn, lucky me... I found this perfect person that loves me for me. Who wants me and all the bagget I bring. They are willing to love me like no other and will do anything for that same love in return.

Damn it’s just my luck that I found the person of my dreams but unforturnately I love someone different. Someone I haven't searched for all my life. Someone so confused they don't know what’s right. Someone who don't do me half as good in bed, but for them I fell... head over heels, staring into their eyes I want to hate them to love the one of my dreams but it seems I can't...kids and that white picket fence is not an option in their world cause they live for the moment, the support is there but not on the same level. I cry when they left me, only because I wanted more of what they bring, we laugh, joke, and play, but I don't think with their love I could soar, and there is a need for much more.

Damn, what fuckin' luck! Loving too people at the same time. When it all boils down to it... it will be my luck that the one I truly want will be long gone and the one I don't know if I want won't be around. And I will be lonely yet again because that luck I had finally ran out.  

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