If I’m blessed,

Why do I feel without?

If I’m anointed,

Why do I feel useless?

If I’m favored,

Why do I feel failed?

If I’m on track,

Why do I feel lost?

If I’m not alone,

Why do I get anxious?

If I’ve been shown,

Why do I feel blind?

If I’ve been told,

Why do I feel deaf?

If I’m rich,

Why do I feel so poor?

If I’m Holy Spirit filled,

Why do I feel so empty?

Why am I constantly as the Red Sea? Why am I constantly in the Wilderness? Why does this life feel like being in a bi-polar relationship? Why is my faith on a never ending teeter-totter?

Am I reading the Word? Am I praising the Lord? Am I worshipping the Lord? Do I testify? YES!

Am I being obedient?

I think so…

So, what’s missing?

Let me know, because I refuse to go,

Back from where He’s brought me, to turn back now would be irreversible—deadly…

Regardless of how it seems,

I’m gon’ stand!

Regardless of how it feels,

I’m gon’ stand!

Despite what I think,

I’m gon’ stand!

Despite the “facts”,

I’m gon’ stand!

Regardless of my situation,

I’m gon’ stand!

Regardless of the outcome,

I’m gon’ stand!

Maybe that’ll make me more obedient – to just stand.