Stumbling and trembling

As I’m sorting my life that’s dissembling

Watching you live your life

Stabbing at my heart like a knife

My heart keeps beating Slow and steady 

I feel unprepared, not ready

You took my heart away and still I try to live with out it

Trying to stay strong, not going to quit

With only time to heal

Trying to understand how I feel

Others ask to please

But only you know those special keys

To please my needs

And loneliness growing on me like weeds

But only you, you is what I want

And the image of your beautiful face continues to haunt

But for now when I cant have you I will take anyone

To lighten the day to have some fun

You take care of that heart because maybe someday I will need it back

Before it’s done bleeding and turned black

Or maybe if you let me I will come back to reunite with it

Maybe one day you will be able to commit

But for now its still yours so don’t break it into many pieces.

And wait till the pain decreases

My life is mine and I get to choose where I’m going

Slowly I’m healing and growing

And I get what I need and what want

With my everything to flaunt

So if I don’t have you now, life just has a better plan for me.

I need to remember how happy I can be

Look out and around, the sun is high the wind sings

Life is just trying to give me wings

My car is sex my smile is fire

I can be something to admire

I have a boy who dose all he can

He may not be part of my life’s plan

But life takes its turns and proceeds

I have a girl to please my needs

I have lots of old and new friends who make me forget you

But today is the day the day I’m leaving it’s time to be through

No longer are your rings on my fingers

Walls stripped of memories so memories of you no longer lingers

Cleaning my life cleansing starting new

I don’t want to talk about you because I’m still in love with you

Not sure what it means but I’m tired of crying trying to find out

I’m trying to find my self a different route

Ill pick up my broken pieces and try to move on

Looking forward to the next dawn

College life here I come no more broken hearts

A time to create new starts

A time to explore my self, find how far I can go

Or be taken see how the world is on the other side of the show

Spent my whole life being safe and good

And now I don’t even care if I should

Now I’m done I made it through and I ended with you

You broke me in two

After you I gave in

Done with false hopes of Andy Oliver or Laura Lynn

Up for anything, any one I don’t want to be alone

I just want some one to be my own

 I just want to get you off my brain

Don’t want to be dragged down by your chain

I miss you and hope your doing as well as I

You’re probably doing better, which I will deny

But just let it be known I love you I pray that we make it through

But until then or if not with my life I will continue