I remember when the silence between us used to mean that we were happy

 Just being in one another’s presence

Now i sit searching the silence for meaning, wondering what’s occupying your thoughts

Wondering where it is that u want to be

It can’t be with me

Since u seemed more content watching people move about on the street

Rather than focusing your gaze on me

I search the silence to try to find the love that used to call out our names

And I am wondering if I should stay

I want to cry

I want to cry for how we are

And how we used to be

I want u to hold me and let me hear your love beat

I need u

But this thing that stands between us

I just can’t conceive

I wish it would leave

Or maybe I am the one who should go?

Because what if there isn’t anything there at all?

Nothing for us to blame

Then that would mean that we created the pain

And the silence means that we won’t own it or name it

But my heart has already claimed it

And now I am afraid that the pain will replace u

And that my ears will never hear u say that u love me too

So we both lose if I just walk away

And u have nothing to say

What was it all for?

And is it really worth fighting anymore?

These are the questions in my mind floating around in the silence

Hiding behind my cries trying to find something that makes sense

Wondering if this love was really meant…

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