something weak, stupid and blind

you were my morning sky and my dusk twilight. all i was, was you. every breath within my body, was nothing more than a monument to you. i lived only to serve you and lived only to love you. i was your creation and saw you in everything that my eyes fell upon.

i gave you everything. no minute would go by without thought of you. the sweetest of the smells would bring me back to you. no nightmare ever frightened you, for i aways new that upon waking, you were there to save me from any darkness that may come to call on me.

no tears ever flowed from these eyes, nor sorrow ever grew in my heart, for there was no room for fear or doubt in me because your love filled me completely, banshing any ill emotion upon the instant it arrived.

night never fell around you, the universe was in a perpetual existance of day. i felt only warmth, even upon moments of inexistance, i knew that your side would always be my home.

then, one dawn you annonced a most joyous event. new life. something that would be nearly as perfect as you. overcome with anticipation, i gleefully looked upon the new arrival. it was a small thing, something weak, stupid and blind. it was pathetic on every account, but something inside me became rattled.

hatred. envy. jealousness. what every name it bares, i felt it first that morning, and i new nothing would ever be the same. i felt your love slowly receiding, taking pieces of me with it, like waves erroding a beach. i could do nothing but watch as everything i ever was, slowly slip through my fingers.

your warmth no longer reached me, your side, no longer open to me. this new thing took the center of your world, pushing me off to the far corners of your kingdom. and night fell for the first time.

my nightmares spilled into reality, bringing with it fear and panic: i had been replaced. and i would never be what i was. i had been cheap entertainment while the star of the show was putting on final touches. a biproduct of utopia. something that was to be promptly rid of.

but it was worse than that, i was made to look after my replacement. i was made to care for it, protect it, gaurd it as precious matter. my hatred grew, a spark soon becoming a flame, then a force of desctruction. any moment you looked away i tempted the weak one to stray, become damaged so, by compairison, i would be loved again. like before.

eventually, i could not hide my contempt and your cruelest idea found its way to me. you asked me to love it. loveit as i had once loved you. love it with all i was. to hold it on high, as perfection. as better than me in every single way.

this was something i could not do. i could not ever love anything the way i loved you. i challenged you, not knowing what else to do. not knowing what else to say. i revolted, demanding that you admit that i was better than your new creation. that i was made of fire, to forever burn brightly, burn long after it had turned to clay once again.

and you cast me out. your opened you wrath on me. a storm like none i had ever witnessed. the skies opened, raining down molten fire, burning all in sight. with one word, you unleashed a wind that carried me to the farthest corner of the universe. the noise left me blind, deaf and numb.

and here i lay. in opposition to all i ever was. alone and filled with unshakable hatred. i cannot remember if i am dead, or if i am just sleeping. time has moved by so quickly and my resurrection came just now. i am awake now.

i am the king of all that is not you. the leader of a revolution. the war mongural keeping the battle going. the face of darkness, the voice of rage. i am pain, fear, choas in the flesh. something that you will look down on and shake, racked with doubt.

do you hate me? you should hate me, i hate myself. you, a being of love will soon have to face me. me a being of hatred. and through your beloved creations, my acid blood seeps into you, weakening. my rancid saliva, twisting and turning, tentacles of concentrated evil, inching their way towards you.

i have waited an eternity to face you and soon, my love you will no longer be able to hide from me. i was born of darkness, the darkness within you. we will join once again and fall into oblivion. we will clash in a final battle of titans. creation and destruction.

ready or not.