She slip the drain plug in

Turns the hot and cold water on to fill the tub

Head down stairs to turn the lights off

Taking the sharpest knife from the kitchen draw

A tall glass of red wine to comfort that’s all

Heads to den to write her note

Her last oath

Telling those she loves bye

Leaving her reason why

Finishes

Takes a good look around

Heading up stairs with out a sound

Stops in front of the bathroom

Knowing this will be the final time her feet touches the floor

Steering at black and white marble tile

Like she was waiting for an answer but no reply

Puts her favorite cd in, Sarah Mclachlan skipping to number five

Hitting repeat then turns the light off and lights the candles 

Giving the room a eerie glow

The music dances through the empty house

She puts the glass of red wine at the edge of the tub

Alone with the two bottles of pills she took from her mother nightstand

And the knife from kitchen draw

Folding her cloths neatly

Laying them on top of toilet seat

Turn to the mirror to fix her hair

Thinking why would any one care

Slides into the tub

The water swallows her whole

Like a drowning man she breaks the surface

Laying her head at the back of the tub

Over the sound of the music

She can hear the ticking of the clock

The soft drops of rain beating against the windowpane

The wind howls through the new leaves

The trees bends as if to wave goodbye

Another spring night in the month of April

Oh well, that didn’t matter right now

She throws back a handful of pills

Taking a mouthful of the wine

The sweet taste lingers in her throat

She then takes the knife cutting her wrist

Hoping that she had hit the vain

She saw a website that told people how to do it

Waiting for the pills to take effect

Closing her eyes thinking of her faith

But it was too late for regrets

Even a debate

As she slips in and out of consciousness

The grim reaper lifeless kiss

Flashes from the prom, cheer-leading practice

Nights with Rick at point lookout

Days on the swing and other things

Slumber party with Lisa, Megan and Jenn

Maryann, Amber and Kim

That ill-fated cold November night when she had too much to drink

Then try to drive the girls home

Swerving from side to side she missed the curve

Over the embankment

Where the car came to rest

Broad side

Against the mighty oak chest

And in that moment they were gone

Friendship so long

She wonders why she walked away from the wreck

Slowly dying with each step

Spending all her time waiting

For that second chance

For that break that would make things ok

But there was always that reason

She felt anything at all

And it became harder with the end of each day

Needing some distraction

Beautiful release

Now these memories seep from her vain 

Wishing she could find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel

Far away from here

Hoping she could find some comfort there