The mantra sounding in my head
Pushing me further in to life
When all i want to do is lay down and die
The harsh words beating against me
So i repeat the line over and over
Wading through the waters of self doubt
Holding back the hate threatens to bubble over
The pain pounding in my chest
Closing up my throat
Finding sweet release
With the bite of the blade
In the arms of passion
Blocking out the betrayal
The looks, the sounds
Falling in to rapture
Calling out for torture
Anything but this!!!
Yes slowly I trudge on
Going through the motions
Of life or something like it
Bitter tears wash down my cheeks
Searching for one lover after another
Yet nothing saves my like my sacred words
They carry me though her hate
Out of the cold and dread of her rule
For
This is not forever
And one day I will break free
Or simply die