When Darkness Comes

when darkness comes, I fear inside
that those hidden memories I hide, they wont be placed aside.
The darkness takes over and envelopes my mind
knocking me over, putting my sanity aside.

those demons I try to lock up in that cage, putting the lid on them, getting up on my stage.
but oh how smart those little imps can be. they love to sneak up and come attack me.
they are sly and cunning, and never suspected. they love to take over and leave me second guessing.

when darkness comes, i am afraid. I try not to sleep, that's where they prey.
they have caught on to my little trick, cause now they take over the day too just as quick.
what do i have to do to release these inner walls. wont they ever leave me alone or am i confined until HE calls?

words keep spewing through my mind everyday. I pray this is healing, to make this all go away.
the voices they hurt me, the memories can flood. sometimes i drown, it brings me quite down.  I want to shut off, shut off from the world, but i love some people and i might let them down.

part of me cares, my mind tells me not to. my heart is expoloding, the lump in my throat imploding.

they call me dramatic. it pisses me off. what i wouldnt give to have this mind shut off.
drama is not what i want to create. i dont make this shit up.. trust me, this part is not fake.
the fakeness comes when i put on my smile, those who know me, can see it from a mile.
they know its just plastic, just to appease. if they are happy than just forget about me.

when darkness comes, someday it might be my friend. when my light goes out, i might be holding my Jesus' hand.
On that great day, i wont fear the night, for i will be in my dear Saviours sight.  HE will keep me safe and forever i will be, i will be safe from the darkness that once imprisoned me.