... and last night I sat alone
yet again
looking for you in each passing car
searching for you in every smiling face
peering into each and every soul
only to be denied
yet again
sometimes
I dream
I've found you
alone and aching without me
yearning for some semblance
of felicity
to light up your soul
and so I come
full of giggles
and smiles aplenty
and I try to fill you up
with every ounce of joy I have
so you will want no longer
so when you smile you will think of me
and you will want no longer
so when you find yourself alone once more
you will want no longer
and still this morning
I woke alone
yet again
and I scream silently
oh I scream silently
your name
my soul aching to hold you tight
and to never let you go
away from my heart
ever again
but my arms will never hold you
on those dark and lonely nights
so I will want no longer
and my lips will never taste your being
so I will want no longer
and I will be alone once more
and I will want forever


8 oct 99