While listening to your heart beat, it makes me wonder about things that makes you smile. Why are these things happening to us? Why can’t we be happy? Why is there so much obstacles in our way? It makes it difficult for us to be bliss.

                    Everything we’ve done, I could never forget. All those happiness and laughter led us to be in love. Every time we cry, laugh and smile, my heart would beat twice as fast as hail fall from the sky and our love would be resilient, it was always inevitable. The love we had was one of the best things in my life, and no one had ever made me happy as much as you have. I remember the time when I showed you a place so wonderful, a place where we can both be together with a beautiful view and the stunning lights of the city. We use to hold each other, while I play our song for our 7th anniversary. I could never forget it because I was frightened to go back down the hilltop because it was too murky.

                       Reminiscing through our past makes it hard for me to let you go, But this is how it’s suppose to be. “Life ain’t always beautiful”, There are so much things that I miss about you; I miss the way you hold me, kiss me, and when you try to tickle me I would always accidentally hit you and you’d hit me back always makes us laugh. When the radio plays love songs and the country songs, when I hear these lyrics about us, tears just drip down from my eyes. Just like the clouds would set and rain would fall from the sky as if their crying with you. My heart is so restless without you; I’m still "tangled up in you". I never knew how life is without you, because I gave you my heart and life isn’t just the same without you anymore.

                         "This mess I made" can never be cleaned and it could never be fixed, but it could always be let go. In every anger and hate, there’s always love to it. Every Fight we endure, we were still together and we could fix it. Every time a tire is popped, we could always put patch in it and our love continues this made our relationship so special. That’s why I’d call it “A Beautiful Mess”.

                        The first time we met, you were torn apart and we weren’t each others type. I was there for you at the beginning, I love making you laugh, and that smile you give me makes my heart beat like drums beating to a beat. The first time we played wii at my house was one of the best times we had, it made your problems go away. Our first kiss, I was afraid to because I was terrified that you wouldn't feel the same as I did. While we were watching a movie, my heart was trembling because this love that i had for you was overwhelming, but when the movie was over. i just had to kiss you. That moment, was the start of a beautiful relationship, but with a devastating ending.


What happens next?

This story was about this relationship i have with this amazing girl. Currently now we got back together, you know how they say," love comes back". well it did and now we've been together for a year and im still in love with her. 12/30/08 was the start of our relationship. i wrote this back in november 6 2009. we got back together a day after i wrote this.

thank you for reading. 

More info about the story: We broke up because i was moving an hour away. and our love was lost. but during the month of october,  i started to miss her, i miss doing everything with her. so day by day we talk through the phone. and later on  our love was reunited once more. It was one of the happiest times in my life.