And pay no mind to your pain
Ringing soundless for your brain.
I am sure that there is peace somewhere
Just burn the clutter...I know it's there.
A knot of hidden energy I can't find
Somewhere beyond my tortured mind.
Reliving and recounting day after day
Only reopens my wounds and makes me say,
"Shut the fuck up you pitiful whiny girl
Your complaintive sob story is going to make me hurl!
Who fucking cares that you are sad and weak
Nothing will be remedied so what do you seek?
Pity? Sympathy? Understanding? What?!
Sharing isn't mending so keep your mouth shut!"
I am an unfinished painting...dusty and mute
Silently imprisoned and forgotten...a bowl of rotting fruit.
Please let me scream outward instead of in
I have to release my agony before I lose it again.
An intangible object constantly pierces my heart
Secretly destroying me....silently ripping me apart.
Oh how it lingers in my throat and in my chest
It is hard to breathe or swallow as my lungs compress.
Courageously I smile as though nothing is wrong
Secretly I want to crumble and stop being strong.
I am weary from my journey through hell and back
I took too many wrong turns....I am lost and ready to crack.