I miss you so much. I cant believe that it has been almost eleven years since the last time i saw you. I thought that after all these years, the pain would go away. But it hasn’t. I guess it never will. I had so many plans for us. I wanted to see our kids grow up. When I had Onni, I wished you could have been there. She is about to turn six tomorrow and the last six have been hard not having you around. I miss the boys. They have grown up so much, too. Why did you have to go? Why couldnt you stick around for a little longer? Why did He take you away? I know that I will never get an answer for what He does is in His will.I can remember so much that you used to do for me. Remember when you lost me at the State Fair? I will never forget how happy you were when you found me. You did my hair that day or you tried, but you got the knockers tangled in my hair and i had to wear my Yogi the Bear hat.You tried to take me to the girl down the street and have her fix it,but it was a lost cause. It is hard for me to even type this without crying, for you were the Best Big Brother. I havent cried in so long, that this is hard. I want to see you so bad, but I wont until I make it to Heaven, where you, Granny, Grandma, Granddaddies are living the good life. I miss you so much and you are never forgotten. Not a day goes by that I dont see your face, hear that goofy laugh of yours and see that bright smile. You are always on my mind and will remain in my heart until it takes its makes its last beat. We will see each other when its time, but until then, I miss you and love you with all my heart.