It’s funny how the bad guys always win in my story…..

It’s funny how my voice cannot come out when I need it to….

It’s funny how…… it’s funny how…………….

It’s funny how the bad guys can lie straight and never get caught….

It’s funny how nobody ever takes my side….

It’s funny how nobody ever believes….

It’s funny….. the feeling of wanting to die…..

It’s funny how I’m always wrong and they’re always right….

It’s funny…. although it shouldn’t be…….

I  feel like I’m useless…. I feel like I wanna die….. I feel like jumping off a cliff….. seems like everytime I talk noone seems to hear…..

It’s hard to even try…. when everyone else wants to get in your way….. when everyone tries to negate you….. when everyone is against everything that you live for…. when you cannot be anything else but their puppet…….

I cannot go on living like that……

Maybe I should just die….. they say that I shouldn’t have lived in the first place….

Maybe I shouldn’t have lived….. they say I’m useless anyway….. I’ve heard it all before….. they say I’m just a nuissance….

Maybe I should just go back…. back to hell…. where I should have been long long ago……..

I don’t deserve heaven anyway….. I’m just useless…….

I REALLY JUST WANT TO DIE……

originally posted on March 31, 2009