It's been a while since we've hugged,

blame it on a grudge,

blame it on unforgiveness

unexpressed love creates such 

a deteriorating sickness

i'm willing, through tear filled eyes

and unclenched fists

to soften my heart

and let you back in

before it's too late, 

I'm falling apart

It wasn't until

I was placed in ur shoes

that i realized

I was being seasoned

for this very position

resentments rummaged my soul

what a heartbreaking condition

deafened by anger

no matter how loud the message

it was almost impossible for me to listen

will u find it in ur heart to forgive me,

cause i know now that I wasn't the victim

life's lessons are sometimes unpleasant

and if not learned can be very persistant

wasted so much time and energy

practically going out my way

to keep a safe distance

that all the while I suffered

from this deep hole in my soul

tryin to fill it with everything

in existence

never realizing until now

that it was you that was missing

so before you go and shut ur eyes

for the very last time

may I give u a hug

for my heart is aching for ur

love and

forgiveness