Only Friend

The tears begin to roll

Slowly reality sets in

I am not loved

I am annoying

As I sit here and freeze

I realize that I deserve this pain

Hatred washes through me

My suffering is your joy

My tears worsen as I attempt to hold them back

I wish to gain back control of my emotions

My end is near

I feel it

The hatred felt towards me will extinguish

along with my burning soul

My pain is your ecstasy

The tears you cause me to shed

Each one elates you into more joy

The pain you cause me is excruciating

I sit alone again

wallowing in my grief

I move forward

So as to end my suffering

My ailiation is my only true friend

It is with me always

in my pain

in my happiness

in my death