" A Problem "

I can't believe this is happening to me, I hate bad news as far as I can see. This only happens to the good, that I only know it happens to the family, friend, but never the foe. There is no word to explain this strange reaction, the negativity of this brings no satisfaction. This has been on my mind for quite sometimes, really can't explain it with this simple rhyme, know one can tell how a person feels they have there own problems, trying to find a deal. Can someone tell me why this is going on?, I have to deal with this and I know it's terribly wrong. I don't have an answer, who can I turn to? keeping this inside make people run from you. God can hear my cry so far away, but this madness keeps me going from night to day. I would like some advice on what to do, even if you are licensed or don't have a clue, I'am running out of time with this dilemma, it's becoming a part of me "Return To Sender". Help me please I need your help, it's taking over and it's becoming myself. I don't want to live this way, for the rest of my life like Michael Jackson sang "It Cuts Like A Knife". You want to know what's really going on? I'll tell you later and it will be long, but for now I have to cope with it one day at a time, until this thing leaves my body and my confused mine. I don't want to scare anyone into panic,but this problem of mine is taking me for granted.