Devils Influence

Basking in a familiar dark solitude
I allow the pain to pour in swallowing me whole
Biting down hard and bearing my soul entirely today nude
Haunted by the hallowed eyes staring back in the mirror

I open my lips to scream but instead comes a message so grave
Take my life now, youve taken everything else
Take me now for my heart has shattered too much to save
Blacked out now are these gray eyes blinded by tears

Delivered unbreathing prematurely a future now lost
Gone is now the one who deprived me of promise so desired
Without a care of what this endeavor others it would cost
Award me death, grant wings of freedom so that I may fly away

The blood will flow from this unhealable soul upon her day of birth
Lost in fields burning her flesh every direction she sprints
No one to see her pain or even cares about her worth
Spitting fire in on her until she is engulfed

Even with the abundance of fuel the flame does dissipate
No screams were heard as she was granted peace at last
So much smoke nothing can be seen such a sorrowful wait
In the end she lies there, eyes shut tight, but on her face is eerily content

I abruptly return to the reflection that started this all
I stared at a symmetrical me til tears came to my exhausted eyes
How did I not see this sooner how blind was I not to see the fall
Counted days til eighteen and eighteen I will count again but like then

The straw pulled was the last and I have it now in hand
Dominated by the disturbances of past and present
Faint and small I realize they will not understand
Cracked have I under so much pressure and demand

My spirit will never forget the lashings inflicted
Screams never allowed, tears forced to hide, smiles so fake
Existance a burden and these eyes, so conflicted
No, they will never see, no one left to hold and comfort me

A path now paved
Blood cold
Hope more than shaved
A future untold