Where is My Wizard

Youre sitting alone crying
Mourning your heart felt loss
Despite already feeling torn apart
Here comes a storm that chooses your life, to toss

This new world is terrifying with all its drama
It holds no enchantment, for its purpose is to confuse
I want to escape and head for my already lonely home
But I find my feet bare, lacking my ruby red shoes

I am trying to find my way through all of this chaos
But I can see not one yellow stone
No road for me to follow
So I journey on, destination unknown

I see a forest to my left
A cornfield to my right
I decide the forest might contain a cabin
So I head towards it with my fists clenched tight

I search for a companion
In this eerie dark place
But I hear no voices
And see not one face

Where is the one with no brain in his head
Where is the man made of tin
Where is the evil witch
I am to battle and accidently win?

Where is my wizard
Or perhaps a prince from another tale
To give me guidance or romantic rescue
For what is a musical note without its scale

Deeper into the forest I journey
Expecting the most cowardly being to appear
But the cold wind blows and the trees begin to creak
My only companions are misery and fear

The darkness clears a bit
I have come to a clearing at last
I see a large empty field
I run across it leaving that scary forest in my past

I see the sparkling green castle ahead
But when I near I see its dark and the door is cracked
I see no one, hear no music or celebration
Was I to be happy or sad, how was I to react?

What was I supposed to do now
There was no where left to turn
I sat down against the wall to cry
For it was my home I did desperately yearn

Out of blue, enlightenment came
Maybe I had found what I was searching for
Maybe these characters I had expected to see
I had already discovered but chose to ignore

I have a brain but against it I often decide
Making it as though it never existed
For its every thought or idea
I had resisted

I had a heart but I hid it from all
Behind a wall of the strongest metal
Lay a beating heart to stay protected
For it was as delicate and fragile as a rose petal

I was one full of fear and sorrow
But everyday put on a brave costume
I scared no one, not a single soul
But the intention was only to hide the gloom

I was the witch sabotaging my every effort
Unintentionally, by holding onto my grief
I robbed myself of my joy
I had become my own thief

A wizard I was all the time
For I travelled to this fairy tale to help me see
All the answers I have been searching for
For the insight and knowledge had been the key!