Holding Back

Words...

oh how they flow from your lips,

you mold them and make them beautiful,

i almost couldnt resist,

caught up, oh how flattered i get,

listening to you pour out your heart and soul,

telling me pent up feelings,

and how you wish things will go,

but you are there, and i am here,

convienced to let my hopes out weigh my fears,

hours away is where the stem of my desire resides,

leaving me lonely to the touch,

and cautious on expressing my feelings inside,

my heart, it beats wildly with intentions to push and to provoke,

i may have faith but fear is the steady hand that chokes,

how i wish i could open up the way you do,

how i wish reality was not an issue,

i know i shouldnt let my head overrule my heart,

but i dont know how to change it,

and i dont know where to start,

i see you in the distance countiously beckening for me,

standing in bright scenery awaiting patientley,

to come to a warmer place where everything seems a glow,

with a pleasent expression on your face as if theres nothing you dont know,

even while you watch me lock myself down,

cuffing my arms and legs waiting for you to turn around,

but there you stay,

permanent as can be,

and though i want to run to you,

iv forgotton where iv left the keys,

so there i stay, with longing eyes,

mouth sewn shut and entirly full of pride,

maybe im too stubborn and im waiting for you to come to me,

but that wont fix the problem unless im willing to make myself happy,