From the moment I saw him- There was this chemistry-
And though I tried to deny my history-
Of falling in love at first sight-
I knew I had to have him if only for one night-
But one night turns into two, three, then four-
And although we were only friends- Friends with benefits-
It never was to become a relationship-
But feelings came into play-My heart was in it to stay-
Regardless of how you felt or what you had to say-
I used to love him, and he was just to be a friend-
But how do you tell a heart to pretend?
Sunrise, my thoughts are of you-
Sunset, I’m trying to forget-
But as darkness fall, my thoughts surround and consume
me to the point where I can’t sleep-
Leaving my mind in a turbulent heap-
While putting my body into a cold sweat-
Images of pleasures spent-
From passion that was heaven sent-
Being with you was like a cleansing of my soul-
Making me feel complete and whole-
From all the years of emotional turmoil-
Caused by being rejected and unappreciated-
From all the times my love was not reciprocated-
I used to love him, and he was just to be a friend-
But how do you tell a heart to pretend?-
We had a fight that last night-Everything happened so fast-
As anger grew, emotions flew-
From everything that happened in our past-
I screamed he cursed-My feelings just burst, to the surface-
I told him that I loved him-He said he didn‘t care-
His heart was not into it- To love me he couldn’t do it-
He only wanted the benefit-No longer the friendship-
I couldn’t comprehend it, on why he wanted to end it-
Somehow I am to blame-
I put my feelings into it- Now our friendship won’t be the same-
Being with him was an experiment that I will never regret-
But it’s going to take my heart a minute to forget-
I used to love him, and he was just to be a friend-
But how do you tell a heart to pretend?-