The pain
is insane
I retain
all my thoughts
it's my fault
that I caught
and regained
what I lost
But then I lost it again
You were once my girlfriend
But I didn't
Realize
How blessed that I was
Til I lost you
What will it cost to
see you smile at
me and tell me that
you love me and
Your trust in me is back
I'll react
and contain
all the facts
and sustain
all the blame
in my name
til the past
is reclaimed
and you forgiveness
I hope I will gain
Someday
in the rain
while I scream out your name
I'm as stupid as shit
I am a dumbass bitch
I don't even deserve
to stand or to sit
in a room
that you were once in
and still smells so beautiful
filled with your special scent
If I spent
the next 100 years
Down on my knees
Pleading to beg
Begging to plead
To ask for a chance
To possibly advance
and kiss your lil toes
grab on your pants
I would do it
and pursue it
for as long as it takes
and if I die
before I wake
from this nightmare
of seeing a tear fall down your face
I would place myself
down on my knees
as a ghost and beg for eternity
because hurting you
is a cardinal sin
it's something I never want to do again
But, if this is the end
I am sad to see
so I say I'm sorry
Please, please forgive me