"MY HEART IS BREAKING"

Could it be true that I am still alone,
Not happy but sad.
I never thought I see myself alone,
With no one to hold and love me for me.
Is it cause I tryed so hard to be loved or,
Maybe I wasn't good enuff or deserved anybody.
Maybe I wasn't pretty enuff or had,
The features they wanted.
I am so lonely.
For many nights I shedded many tears,
I was so low that I just wasn't myself.
A stranger, a loner, never a positive thinker,
I still feel ashamed.
I still feel like I wanna give up,
Throw in the towel and if there was anyone that ever loved me,
I would begin to push them away.
Cause I feel that they could never stand up or compare.
I know from time to time I may write about love,
Some I experience and some I want to.
But the way I see it I believe love is a game cause,
No one would take it seriously and,
When it comes to me hummm;
I the one that get used and taken advantage of.
It's not fair not right but guys these days huh,
Ya'll laugh when ya'll do it.
Not saying all is like that but most of ya'll are,
Especially ones that come my way.
I may be pretty and fine as ya'll say but when it comes to,
Getting at me and with me you can't treat me.
You back up from what you suppose to do,
Why can't you accept me for me.
My heart is breaking and a matter of fact it is broken.
As I sit here and reflect on my life now it is,
So very messed up, its on the wrong path,
Wrong rode and no one can help me put it back together.