i feel like I’ve been chasing a dream

you know, me loving her and she loving me.

every dream every night is reoccurring.

yawning for her touch

her closeness

begging to hold her tight

when we disappear into dreamland

sharing the same spirit that holds our dream tight.

I’m telling you this cause i feel like I’m chasing a dream.

a dream thats slowly eatting away at my soul

that bring sadness to my heart when she’s a happy thought.

a dream that allows the demons of loneliness sweep over me tonight.

this mid night thought.

i wanna break away from its grip

the hold love share with her on me.

i wanna run to the nears mountain if that keeps the thoughts away.

chase the far-est star if the pain digress!

I’m sick of this dream

because of it i might never sleep again!

i love her i can tell you that

but this chase is rendering me weak…

as the last tear run down my eyes

I’ve realized…

love does hurt and this is my test

to see if i can survive her love even without her existence.

i cant and i wont

i REFUSE!

i love you

i swear

but your love

is my near death!