All I Have

Why do I set myself up?
Why do I put myself out there
for all the let downs and despair?

I wish for something more
than just a smile and friendly "hello."

I thought I saw the connection.
But every time I get close
you carefully pull away.

I don't want to continue going on like this.
Feeling like I'm not good enough.

I have people telling me that I can do better.
That i'm going to die from heartache.
But they just don't understand.

My heart belongs to you.
I see no one when I'm with you.
My heart jumps when I see your face.
And everytime your near
I feel like I can't breathe.

Why do I feel this way
when I know that you don't care?

You tell me that I'm ok.
That I don't get on your nerves.
When everyday you contradict everything you say.

You only talk to me when you need something.
And when I want to talk
you don't.

I don't understand
What I did wrong.
Why I'm the way that I am.
Why I'm not good enough for you or anyone else.

I'm done giving all that I have
My heart
My soul
My mind
and never getting anything back.

I'm tired of being hurt
and let down
shut down
and rejected.

But I know
down in my heart
that I could never get away
from your side.

Because I love you with all that I have
My heart
My soul
My mind.