I want to feel so much that it burns.
I want to feel it all, like a thick liquid that slides down your throat, and leaves a Tingling burn down the edges…
The kind of liquid that leaves your mouth and throat dry, just so you have to find The antidote to quell the swelling, and the disappointed bile rising up. 

I want to drink from waterfalls that we only see in pictures, I want to climb the walls all the way to the top and submerge my head completely under the pristine surface, and feel the water flow through me.

I want to scale the sides of mountains, just to stand with my hands in the air at the uppermost peak of humanity. 

I want to scream, so that everybody will hear my voice, even if they don’t want to, or even if it is saying something nonsensical. 

I want to dance as if nobody is watching, I want to feel the music flow from my fingertips, through my brain, pulsating through my heart and filling my veins like air, giving way to movement in tandem with the beautiful notes and sounds.

I want to break down in tears because something touches my heart ever so slowly, then slowly envelops it with all its got. I want to cry so much that it looks as if I had gone swimming, I want to let every bad thing that’s ever happened to me out through my tear ducts, to be swallowed again by something far greater than me, like the earth.

I want to smile so widely that my gums will ache, and my cheeks will beg me to stop in a not so nice tone. I want to smile so widely and for so long that I fear it will stay permanently. 

I want to grab life with both hands, drink straight from the bottle, run with my bare feet touching the surface of the ground, I want to feel one with everything around me. I want to speak to all forms of life - and be understood. 

I want to love so deeply that I forgot what it was like to be lonely, to be hurt, to be saddened. I want to love so deeply that I get burned if I touch it, that it gives my heart reason to beat as it does now.

I want to trust so completely that I can push myself out of my comfort zone, and fall off a ledge, just because I know that somebody, sometime, somewhere will be willing to break my fall - to catch me. 

I want to be so important to somebody that it pains them to see me in despair. I want to make such an impact on somebody’s life that when asked about what changed their life- what gave them the thrive to pick themselves back up and dust themselves off - they utter my name with such conviction that it brings tears to their eyes.

I want to know that there is a reason that I am standing here. That I am sitting here and writing all of this for an audience that will never be. I want to know that there is such a supreme meaning to life that we are all here for not ourselves. No, we are all here for each other. I want everybody in the world to have a hand to hold onto. I want everybody to be able to feel completely. To grab the bull by the horns, to climb to every height. I want people to be built up, and not torn down.

I want people to have a hand to hold onto as they are at the end of their lives…because nobody should die alone.

I want people to have a heart, I want myself to be able to accept those around me for who they are, not who I want them to be.

I want the human back in humanity.