I sit here in thought my trust has been shattered yet asked for again

I can't give what I don't have you ask me to trust you who gave in to lust he asks me to trust he's under your thumb and not of my blood but he treated me as such since when is blood less trust worthy than water since when did my dreams of light turn to dreams of the night

it calls to me it wants me to travel to be restless and awake to let my pain be swallowed it holds my fear but also my love and joy me a boy who ran through the forests at night with out a fright

now my biggest fear is I can't trust my familiy who was torn apart at 4 years old by a mothers insistance that she couldn't be wrong how I longed for what was torn apart to be patched togther again but now it is and I have grown older and seen your actions and hold doubt in their meanings

why do you tease me with something i've always wanted but can never have because that young boy is now a man who distrusts you not because of someone else's words but your own actions that he has seen of your deeds that you have done you've lost your son it seems he knows it in his mind but his heart still refuses to see what liars and theives you've become for a son is supposed to love his parents no matter what they've done.......

Isn't he?